How do I live without you?

It's so difficult to live without him.
Yes, you guessed it right, I am talking about my friend sweetu..
He went to U.S. on 24th of this month....(merely 3 days ago!).
But it seems to me that he has been away for so many months...

Earlier, we were supposed to go together, but due to unavoidable circumstances (or,you can call it my bad luck), he had to go alone..

I miss him so much,,I used to share everything with him,,,there were no false pretences,no lies,,nothing superficial in our relation.....( I am sorry ,,,there are no false pretences...relation).

There is love , understanding and care in our relation. Infact, he is my soul mate.

Even we have disputes, heated discussions, sometimes we don't even talk to each other for hours, but then we try to solve our problems before going to sleep..
If You are eager to know who initiates the peace process,,whether him or me,,then I must tell you most of the time it's him, and sometimes me ( when I see there is no reaction from him).

I am counting days of his return.
I hope he will come in his winter vacations.

It's 90 days from now..(if we consider he is coming on 25th of December).


We used to talk for more than 5hrs. daily, We used to know what each of us were doing at any time of the day..

Now, the situation has changed. Today he talked to me only for fifteen minutes in whole day..I don't know what he is doing,,and same is with him..

May be after few days it will be ok, when he will buy a mobile and computer...

Still,there is so much difference in our time zones...His time is 11hrs 30 minutes behind my time....So, when it is night here, he is working, and when it is day time here, he is sleeping....

When will my wait end...?

I am keeping my patience, but how long will I be able to do this, I don't know..

I request God to give me courage to face these tough times...

When the two met

This Friday was a great day,
It was a day I will remember all my life.

Yes,,it was the day when my boyfriend and my father came face -to-face..

First,let me familiarise you all with the background..
My friend is going abroad(U.S.) as he has got a job there recently.He will be coming back in December Holidays..So,he wanted to meet my dad and talk to him about us.

At first ,my father was reluctant to meet him,he said let him come back then we will meet.But I said,"He is coming tomorrow..that's it...".It's not that my dad doesnt know about him,,or he is against our relationship ,,but I think he was feeling awkward...So,he tried to evade the situation,,,but I persisted and so,finally he gave in to my wishes...

So,the meeting was fixed,Friday 21 september,2007,,8:15 pm/8:30 pm.My friend (sweetu) was invited for dinner...His flight was on 24th september,,so he was quite busy with so many things,,but still he agreed to come as he was eager to meet my father...

Actually ,my father was a bit angry with him, as he was going there alone,,leaving me here...So,I told sweetu in advance about the situation..

So,both the people were very uneasy about the meeting..

I started the arrangements in the evening,,took out special dinner set,changed the sofa covers and table cloth,,washed the artificial flowers in the room..cleaned the room,cleaned the carpet,,and so on...gave instructions to cook as to what to cook for dinner...


The time came ,,I called sweetu and asked him when is he coming..
He said ,"No,electricity,,please wait ..I will come soon.I have to iron my clothes,etc."

So,at 8:45pm he left his home to come for the meeting.
On his way,he kept asking me ,,what will your dad say,,should I say this,or that,etc.And I guided him as accurately as I could.

He arrived at 8:55pm,I opened the gate for him,,I wished him good luck..So,he entered the drawing room after me,,He touched the feet of my father and greeted him saying "Namaste"(this is how we indians greet each other).And I think that was the turning point of the whole meeting..my father seemed quite overwhelmed by sweetu touching his feet.then sweetu greeted my mother and touched her feet too.

Then he sat down on sofa near my father.
Mummy and I brought water ,and sweets for him and roasted cashewnuts,too.
My father asked him to have them,,instead he said ,"i will take,,but first you take and served my parents"

There was nothing like breaking the initial ice,,ice had already melted...The atmosphere was now warm and comfortable.

My father asked him some things about his father,his siblings,etc.

There were moments of silence...
There were moments when only sweetu and I were speaking to each other.

We talked about his travel plan.His plans after returning back,etc.
When there was silence ,I prompted sweetu to say something,,then he asked my mother about her health,,,etc...

Then the dinner was served,,I served the dinner for father and him..He asked mom also to have dinner with them..Mom smiled..I told him that she will have it later with me..

Let me tell you the dinner menu,,""Chole pulao, chapatis ,cucumber -raita, kheer"",,that's it..

Dinner was cooked by our cook Rani,,,and I guess sweetu didnt liked the dinner...and I am sorry for that,,if I had known that ,I would have cooked the dinner myself....

Then we all had a light chat,,and then he took the leave. ..

and so the meeting ended.....


But I cant forget it...

My mom was very impressed ,,she said it appeared as he had been coming here for years...she said that she felt that my brother was sitting there in his place..

And my father didnt said anything but looked relaxed ,,and I guess he was happy too.

Now ,I think Why I love sweetu so much,,a person who can impress my parents in one meeting,,how could I have not been impressed by him..

What do you say?

Join the Magical Flying carpet ride !

I have been visited by Genies !!!!!!!!!

Yes,I have been visited by the two genies,the mighty Genie King and the beautiful Genie Princess of Mariuca....


And the greatest thing is that , I have to put up their Genie symbols on my blog,and in return they have given me one wish to do whatever I like..

These genies found me through Sophiagurl,,to whom I am thankful for showing these genies my way....As I really need a wish right now.............

So,I will make a wish and pass on these genies to five lucky friends ..........


So,I am going to list down the rules for my lucky friends:-

***Start Copying Here***

Rules:

1. Write a short paragraph about your visit by the two Genies and include a link to the blog that passed on the Genie Symbol to you.
2. COPY the Rules and ENTIRE List below and post it on your blog.
3. List down your wish.
4. Place your name below the last name on the list and pass on the Genie Symbol to at least 5 other bloggers.
5. Please put up either one (or both) of the Symbols of the Genies on your blog to show that the Genies have visited your blog. Codes are given below:

Genie Princess




Genie King



For codes please have a look at Mariuca's blog...

The Genie King, the Genie Princess and their trusty Genie Buddy have visited:

Mariuca would like to wish for success and fame.
Adrian would like to wish for good health and happiness.
Emila would like to wish for happiness and success.
MPG would like to wish for love and peace.
Bobby would like to wish for the powers of Superman and immortality.
Jean would like to wish for stress-free work environment and happiness.
Trinity would like to wish good health for Jan's brother & Yah & Wan & success.
Jesse would like a great isp and a Yummy box of chocolates.
Jay would like to wish for 10k visitors and readers per day.
Spiff, The Spaceman would like a billion US Dollars! (Am I being too greedy here?)
Rolando would like everyone’s hearts desire to come true.
Sam would like to wish for a happy & simple life and happiness to everyone.
Speedcat Hollydale would like a pet acorn monkey named "Monkee".
Joezul would like to wish for all to get their wish come true.
Promthep would like to be successful in everything.
kumo would like to wish everybody a better day every next day.
NAFASG would like to build a better community for everyone.
Levian would like to be happy always.
Apple would like to be slimmer.
Menopauseprincess would like peace, happiness, love, health & prosperity for everyone!
Morgan would like to wish for love, laughter, sunshine & blue skies for EVERYONE!!!
Kellie would like to wish for happiness & love to be bestowed on her family & friends.
LadyJava would like to wish for love, health, beauty and wealth for one and all.
Keeyit would like to wish for staying healthy and happily with family.
Colleen wishes everyone be well and happy.
Spookygrace would like to have a busy traffic and making money blog.
Janice Ng would like to wish for good health for his brother.
Nick would like to wish for a set of new running shoes!
Shinade would like to send love,peace,wealth & good health to everyone.
Cbenc12 would like to wish for health, happiness & luck for my family & friends & me too!
Paris would like to wish for more publicity! Hooyah! (taps swollen head).
Bokjae would like to wish for speedy recovery for j@nice's brother, yan and wan!
Giddy Tiger would like to wish for longer weekends and never-ending holidays!
Book Project would like to wish for total wealth minus one Solomons Wish.
MT would like to create a toys & games empire & have the will to continue blogging.
Dawn would like to wish for world peace.
Cotojo would like Love, Peace, Harmony, Understanding & safety for all the children.
Bobo would like health and wealth for everyone she loves (including all her blogfriends).
Auntie Dar would love to end animal cruelty.
Chinnee would like to wish for happiness and good health forever!
Ozzieblackcat would like to wish for success with her blog!
Rinnah would like to wish for more good paying opps to come my way!
Bless would like to wish for more happiness & more blessing for family & world peace.
La Chanson de Phoenix would like to wish for a small bottle of sweet perfume.
Shireen would like to wish for good health, longevity and happiness for all her loved ones!
Lovelymummy would like to wish for good health, longevity, love, wealth, happiness !
Rachel would like to wish 4 health, happiness, freedom, worry free, luck, wealth, safety.
Mr.Thief would like to have Jessica Alba as his wife!
Ting would like to exterminate all retards but end up being the richest man instead.
conancat would like to wish that Almond the Poodle will get fatter & fatter & fatter!
Vamp would like to wish to become a rempit.
Shoppingmum would like to wish for all her wishes come true.
LemonJude would like to wish for world peace!
Hui Sia would like to wish for love, health, wealth and happiness.
Cherry would like to get married.
Binding Ink would like to wish for A Humanity United in Harmony.
Mommy of 2 Angels wish for great joy for my family.
Adyla would like to wish for mighty stars so they will grant her other wishes forever.
Sean would like to wish family members live healthier!
Pinkelle would like to wish 4 health, happiness & good results all around 4 my loved ones!
Mama Tang would like to wish for health, wealth, success and happiness for everyone.
Chew Lee would like to wish hubby for a successful business venture in Singapore.
Mel would like to wish that everyone would choose happiness!
SA would like to wish for more time to get things done and rest.
Sandee would like to send happiness and good health to everyone.
Jam would like to manage Manchester United.
Anggie would like to wish for dream and wish come true.
Shooi would like to wish for peace on earth, love, good health and happiness.
Rebecca would like to wish for Powerpuff gal.
Pookyma would like his one wish made into a couple more wishes.
Sophiagurl would like to wish for the good health of her mom and dad, peace and prosperity for her brother's
family, a baby for her sister, good health and blessings for her husband and two daughters,peace, love and happiness for everyone.
Sibbia would like to wish that Anne keeps her house & for guidance and prosperity.
S.E. would like to wish for abundance, peace, health and prosperity for all!
Sweet girl would like to wish that as long as she lives ,she has the company and love of sweetu(pkd) !
Baby Sa would like her wish made into another few selfish wishes.
Zunnur would like to go to a place with fresh air, green earth, blue skies & nice people!
yung would like to live in a world without lies!
Slavemom would like to wish for happiness & good health for her loved ones & herself!
Wen would like to wish for happiness and health for herself and her family.
kimfei wish everybody will live happily ever after.
aikosumomo would like to wish for success with her dance life!
Diamondssaphire would like to wish for her son to continue to be succesful in school.
1+2mom would like to wish hubby success on his business & good health for family.
Doodski would like to wish for good health, peace and happiness for his family.
Sweetpea would like another two extra hours in a day, excluding working time!
La delirante would like to wish for all our wishes to come true.
3POINT8 would like to wish for POWER!
Trenting would like to wish for a fruitful and healthy life inclusive of many riches.



Welcome aboard the Magical Flying Carpet for the Ride of your Life!

Alakazam!

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Now,the five lucky friends to whom I want to send the genies are:-

1)Beth
2)Prajyot
3)R T cunningham
4) Rudi
5)Bajaenergy

Make your wish,,genies are on your way !

Alakazam!

When will the morning come !!!

Hi Friends!

How are you all? I hope fine..
It's been almost one month since I wrote my last post..

In this month I have been through lot of ups and downs..

At present,,I don't know exactly whether I am at up situation or down situation.

It's Fifty -Fifty situation....
50% happiness...as 50% work is done
50% sadness ....as 50% work is left.

and that 50% work which is left ,I am not sure whether it will be completed or not..

well, Let's see what happens.........

I am very thankful to all of you who gave me strength in these difficult times..

Mark IV: ""things always turn out good. just keep moving through the fog and you'll eventually clear up.""

Thanks for your inspiring words,,I have noted them down in my cellphone ,,and read them when I really feel depressed.

Prajyot: ""see...its how we take up this time..all people face gud or bad times..god just puts bad time humps just to see how we tackle..u have to tackle and move ahead..."u can do it""

Thanks for believing that I can do it...

Beth: ""If you want something bad enough, it will happen. Maybe not in the time that you are looking for, but certainly it will.
Take a deep breath and smile. It always helps me...""

I am really thankful for your inspiring words...

Sophiagurl: ""hi Sweet Girl, my heart goes out to you. I hope that whatever you are going through right now will be clearer in the next few days. I will pray for you...God Bless!""

Thanks for your true wishes.

Wildflower:""Everyone feels that way...curses her fate mumbling just two words "why me?" ..but it's not just you, believe me...life is one big struggle besides all the fun we have..take care! ""

Thanks for your concern

Liferocks:"Well I never pin too much hope onto something happening. You are not pained if it does not happen but elated if it does...""

Thanks a lot for your advice.......

Dreamcatcher:.""dnt wry this shall pass..just leave urself to the flow..i really pray n hope u will find the way""

Thanks for your concern and advice and wishes..I hope everything turns out good for you....

Rudi:""Everyone has days like this. It'll pass and things will look better again soon :-)""

Thanks a lot.......

Zunnur:""Life is sort of sailing a boat, we choose our destination and steer the boat. Sometimes the sea is calm and the view is great, but sometimes storms come raging, and we hold tight to the steering to keep our direction steady.

As we hold on tight, and look to the side, we would see that there are other boats struggling through the storm as well, we are not alone, and we felt grateful that our boat is much bigger and stronger to sustain through the raging ocean.

Hope that you’ll get through fine.""

You are right friend...and thanks for your wishes

Pirut:""Be yourself everyday my friend. Never sell your 'ownself' to somebody! Keep realistic everyday and everyminutes! Even every you take a breath! ""

Thanks for the advice friend............



And you know what?
My brother came across my blog and he was sad that I didn't tell him personally about my problems...He said he liked my blog..He said he couldn't do much in such situation but atleast can pray for my better future.............

Once,in my schooldays,my brother had read my personal diary,and I was angry with him,I felt cheated,,but today I don't mind his reading my blog....and I am thankful to him for his moral support..

Coming back to my problems.......

I hope situations will be better soon........
After Night,dawn has come,but I am still waiting for the morning......

I still need your wishes........

Take care all of you,
Have a great day !!